Lol...this is about as insulting as it is funny...you must drive a Dodge.
I'm not trying to insult you. I'm explaining why you are the way you are.
Your impotence is why you fall back on using sexual acts as expressions power. You can't even get it up (because you aren't attracted to women), so in your repressed mind the act of performing sexual acts on a woman is the ultimate expression of power. It's like a child looking up to an adult for doing things they are incapable.
You would be a psych professors dream. They could point to you about textbook projections of self loathing, as is typical with most ignorant rednecks you associate with and learned these behaviors from.